About me and my dancing path
For many years I was traveling, researching tradition of old cultures, specially healing, dance, sound, touch, meditation, ancient rituals. I was studying and working in centers of natural healing in India and Italy.
I finished School of Reflexology and continue with study on The Oracle School of Colour and Aura Soma Colour Therapy School.
After own experience of pregnancy and water birth I was working with pregnant women for some years: yoga, emotional preparation for birth, creative visualisation for pregnancy and birthing. I was teaching partners how to help their wifes in pregnancy and birthing with touch and massage
Later, I was leading a project "With reflexology to the health of children and families", teaching reflexology, oriental massage, colour therapy....
Last years I was mostly working with women in Slovenia, Croatia and Portugal, in summer time we have seminars on small beautifull island in Adriatic sea, as well as in wild forest of slovenian mountains.
I am journeying deeper and deeper into song of Gong, Tibetan singing bowls, cristal bowls and, specially, voice. I am creating CDs with relaxation music, perform concerts...
My dancing path
I was a baby when my grandmother danced with me in her arms, and when I started to walk and talk, I used to say I’m going to be an Indian dancer when I grow up …
My childhood and youth were full of dance. Female dancers surrounded me in my family.
I started to learn ballet when I was six and continue over next 6 years.
In high school I experimented further with body movement. I was getting ideas about a show with dancing on breath and clapping with no other music … but in such uncommon dancing ideas I remained alone. I haven't met people to work together on such projects, but it hadn’t made me stop.
In the next years I experimented with dance as a tool for releasing the stuck emotions, for getting into a deeper touch with my instinctive self …
This turned into a self-therapy in the years of crisis after the death of my mother.
I would take an hour of time every evening for dance with music, often with “Fire Breath” trance music, in which uncommon breathing is heard. I would connect my breath with the one on the tape and I danced in candle lights for almost an hour.
Many emotions arose as well as many memories. At that time I recognized that we carry with us all we ever experienced – all memories, good and traumatic – in the cells of our body. And when we move the body in a completely free way so it can “take over”, when we stop controlling it, we awake all the forgotten stuff in our storage. This process is much stronger when we connect the dance with intensive breathing and vocalization. Such experiences are often life transforming.
I believe we are born for movement. When we move our bodies, there is no depression.
People are depressed from stiff living, from all the sitting in our life. The solution is movement; control-free dance is a great tool for reaching and maintaining happiness.
Trance dance is many times life-transforming experience. I can share one of many with you.On a shamanic trance dance journey into the earth to meet my power animal, a wolf came up to me and further on I became that wolf. I experienced myself being in the wolf’s body, running in the snow, surrounded by a herd of wolves in great freedom and joy, that is beyond expression, full of sparkling life energy. Later the wolf family surrounded me from everywhere. We were merged into strong energies of love and acceptance …
Tears were running down my body like rivers; I’ve found the forgotten longing.
At that period of my life, I spent quite some time on the retreat being solely with my son but with no friendships.
That dance trembled the deepest cells of my being. I recognized my deep desire and hunger for being with my soul family. I decided to open my life to friends and spontaneously it actually happened. Very soon my home was full of people, with whom I felt like family. My work with dance today is connected with the rebirth of feminine.
My travels brought me to some old cultures with lively mystic feminine tradition.
Their rituals, dances, stories, songs ... began to fulfill the emptiness inside some parts of me and what’s more the forgotten, lost parts of my real self began to awake …
Dancing and singing turned to be my prayer and I merged deeper into oneness with nature.
The time of pregnancy lead me to deepest intimate relation with my body I ever experienced. I recognized how wonderful my body is, having all the wisdom for creating a baby body inside my growing womb. Even my body was able to create a new life “by itself”. I chose to consciously cooperate. I communicated with my son during the time he was in my womb and prepared for a natural birth. I transformed all the fears using creative visualizations.
I observed how my intuitive brain side “took over” more and more as the pregnancy reached its peak. What I mean is: any thoughts and images directly affect the functioning of body. We can use that fact purposefully. According to doctor's opinion I was going two weeks late with labor and then I also felt it: That's it, it was a great blessing to be pregnant, but I can't stay like this for another year. I am willing to open my being and my body to labor. I took a piece of clay and made a sculpture of a family hug: me, my partner, and the baby in my arms. I did it with a clear purpose of letting go of pregnancy and opening to new, family life. A few hours later the sculpture was finished and at the same moment I had the first contraction.
Besides that woman in pregnancy and during birth is more open for hearing the whisper of intuition and for spiritual experiences.
My labor was beautiful. I was ready to consciously accept and experience strong ecstatic and spiritual extensions of giving birth to a child.
I danced trough contractions. Since I was deeply connected with the instinctive woman inside me, I was open to the wisdom of feminine. Oriental dance during contractions was a spontaneous reaction of my body. It transformed the pain into a rainbow of sensations, many of which were pleasant.
A few months later I began to work with pregnant women, teaching them creative visualization for pregnancy, birth and nursing, along with relaxation, breathing and body exercises.
My labor was initiation into the oriental dance.
Later, I found a Jordanian teacher and learned intensively this art from her over a period of two years.
I remember the first seminar of oriental dance I attended. We danced for hours and when I felt tired, I sat and watched the other dancing women. The room was sparkling with their beauty and it was obvious that each of them is very special and very beautiful regardless of the fact how their bodies fit into to the beauty standards of the society.
Later that night, as I was driving home I suddenly felt hot liquid run from my womb down my thighs; I touched my thighs and found nothing, yet the feeling remained for a while and was very strong. Both experiences reflected the quick and deep psychophysical effects of oriental dance.
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